The Beginning

This is exciting. So I have had my interview. It has been a long process getting here, it was a long process getting to the stage of applying, but I have now sat down and been interviewed.

It was the day before my 21st birthday and as I celebrated over the weekend, I realised I was excited about Monday and the looming interview. It dawned on me that I wasn't nervous or scared, in fact, I don't know if I've ever had as much peace as I did walking into that building. It just felt like a fat 'YES' as I cycled in and parked my bike. I was actually very excited.

Now, let me give a bit of context to this. I have never seen myself going into this. Relay although appealing was not something I thought, 'oh yeah, that's what I'll do after Uni', I don't really know what I thought. There were many ideas; 180 (a charity working with youngsters not engaging with education or life), St. Aldates internship, Masters in Drama therapy, work for a charity or organisation working with troubled youth... the list was endless.

The thing is, I know I like working with people, I love it. There is nothing I would rather do. I love talking to people about important things, I'm actually find conversations hard unless I genuinely care or we are talking about deep things which sometimes leaves my 'banter' lacking. I seem to take things too literally to the frustration of all those who try to make sarcastic jokes around me. (woosh, it goes straight over my head.)  The other thing I am learning to do is talk to people about faith in a real, relevant, honest way. It's hard. I'm learning that if they don't agree, they aren't rejecting me but Jesus (not sure what makes me sadder) but the point is, I didn't think I would put doing what I adore doing, with what I adore.

But now, I am completely stepping out in faith. Completely. For Relay I have to raise a LOT of moneys. Yes. A LOT! and I have no idea where it is going to come from, but in that, I am stepping out. I am saying, I believe my God is bigger than anything in this world and if he wants me to do something, then He will make it happen. Flip! What a challenge! But you know what? I really think he can do it. I do. I really do. A few months ago, I REALLY didn't but now, full heartedly, I can say 'If my God is with me, well what can ever be against me?'. How cool is that?! If God is for me doing something, then well...there is absolutely nothing to worry about.

So, the interview was brilliant. I had the best time answering honestly and openly questions about next year; who I was, what I was passionate about, how I would deal with different situations. It was a complete joy and the people who interviewed me, are, and were wonderful. So, YAY!

Now, I just wait but in the mean time, I pray and hope but live in the light of the fact that, if I wasn't going to get it, that is just because God has something SO much better in store and if it's better than Relay than it'll be incredible!

Until next time, please do pray for me and the people placing me; that they would be guided by God in their decision and I would have peace in trusting the Lord for my life.